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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Wednesday, January 11, 2006 3:53 AM
whee. just finished watching television. going to sleep soon. later having all the boring subjects. wonder if i will sleep later. lols. how i wish i do not need to go school. stay at home all the way. sigh. now raining heavily again. SIAN arhs. idiotic man. arghh

yesterday went out with my connect group. went to far east to eat SUBWAY. of course, i'm on diet, so i didnt eat. and guess what? we spent like 1hour to 2hour at the place. sigh. i sat there doing nothing. come to think of it, it may be a waste of time. lol. it's not a waste of time, because i got to know more people? lols. not sure either. just know that i'm quite happy yesterday. though there was a black out at my house in the morning. without any electricity going on, and worst, i lost all my data which i didn't save it, because i let my computer go on sleeping mode. haha.

today is the 11th!!time really flies. so fast, about half the month gone liao, tests are coming up, exams too. sometimes, just felt no confidence in passing at all. Lord, i seriously cannot find the life that i'm supposed to lead. i just felt so dead in my heart, i need You to revive it. because i cannot go on in this way. i will definately collapse. sigh. i never regretted coming to have known You, though i need to sacrifice some times, but You allowed me to sense the true happiness in You, the real life that one could be able to enjoy. thank you. i want to know You more this year and i know, i will never regret coming to You.

sometimes, i just find that whatever i told you online, is all just to agitate you. i just want to say, SORRY. i never meant to say the things i told you. but i just do not want you to ignore me. just treat me as a friend. because i know that i cannot allow you to leave my world just like this. it's fated that i come to know you. yesterday, i started to recall the first time i asked you a question, the first time i sent you home, the first time you asked me to be....at the staircase. somehow, all this memories aren't easy to be forgotten. so why should we forget about it purposely? lifes are full of ups and downs. i just want to let you know, it's been a great time since i know you. i learnt many things. thanks.

going off to sleep liao. lols. nites everyone, cya guys later! wahaha.